Runnin With The Outlaws

It’s been a while.

 

Today is the big day.  Today is the day we head to the Dirt Track at Charlotte… where all dirt roads lead.  If the big names are big, the small-time guys are even bigger.  This is where dreams are made and broken, this is where you make it or break it, this is where we say our final salute to the king, Steve Kinser.

 

I always thought I would be saying that Kaytlyn and I would be getting on the road at 4… but that’s not happening this year. 

 

I guess some things change, some for the worse, some for the better.  This year, my heart breaks not because I’m not hauling a car.  Not because my favorite team blew a motor and doesn’t have a chance.  Not because our driver is ill and can’t compete to make the show.  Not because my douchebag ex-boyfriend is going to be there and ruin it for me.  Not because of anything race related except for the fact that I’m not sharing my favorite experience of the year with my favorite friend. 

 

I don’t know where things go wrong in situations like this or who is to blame, if anyone, but I guess you just have to take it in stride and try and be a grownup about it.  Except, I’m me… and nothing I do is very mature. 

 

Here comes the biggest race weekend of the whole season, states away from our hometowns, and my best friend will be staying at home without me.  I would tell you that I’m over it and I’ve cried enough, but the tears are welling up as I write this even today.  Call me dramatic, roll your eyes, do whatever it is you’re going to do but… this is me throwing a hissy fit because I miss having a best friend, I miss the laughing and the inside jokes, miss being welcome and having somewhere to escape to on a weeknight when we both need a break from life, miss tromping through the woods with my camera and a 6 pack… Forgive me, but at this very moment, I can’t even.

 

It’s not going to stop me from having the time of my life at the World Finals.  I’m not going alone, and I’ll be hopefully in victory lane with one of my favorite princesses of all time, Miss Motorsports 2014 Cassi Pinder.   And her family is going.  And my mom is coming and my aunt and uncle are going.  And my famous friends are going to be there and my friends that are only famous to me will be there.  And we have enough liquor and food and guitars to have more than 3 days of fun.  And although I feel as if I’ve left a bolt untightened, I’m going into this weekend full throttle … and I’m not lifting.  I'll just keep trying to shake the feeling that something's missing.  I guess everything happens for a reason and I hope that someday everything gets back to normal in the friend world-- or normal in the way that I'm used to anyway.

 

I love you all very much, and I hope to see you in Charlotte, North Carolina, for the World of Outlaws World Finals.  If you see me, I hope you give me a big hug or a smile or a high five or ask to take a selfie with me.  This is my last race, probably, as Miss Area Auto Racing News 2014 and I hope to make it a great one. :) 

CANCEL YOUR PLANS-- WE'RE GOING RACING IN CHARLOTTE, PEOPLE!!!

 

<3 Miss AARN